Poetry Of Life

so i have a new kitten now...welcome to the family..i gave the kitten a name...and its Bell....reminds me of someone though.....thats why...plus another reason for that is when i called that name,,,,the kitten understands it...so thats 1....

2nd..i miss cst29....by next year,,imma gona start something for cst29...and i will make it as my personal project to be achieve for next year...i will give myself a dateline...and by the time its done...i will post it for CST29's blog....

nuff said......

xoxo....

i drove to work this morning and listening to Christmas songs and i feel so excited for Christmas. then i remembered i have to buy presents. have to buy. but what? then yea work is a lot but loving it so i don't complain much.

i am still wondering what to change for this layout.

and yea.i want to mention that i bought this contact lens early this month and it is great! fits my eyes but then again seems like the degree of my eyes are getting higher but i dont want that. i still prefer like it is now. i just wear contact lens for pampering my eye color once in a while. so december is coming soon which means payday will be next month.

i cant wait for my 50$ escapade gift since i won the bet.

and i cant wait for december. im leaving soon to KK for Christmas and i cant wait to spend times and taking pictures with my family. hopefully after my cousin's wedding we wont be having so much headache as we are now.

going to bed soon.

night earthlings.

xoxo.

early this morning.i drove to work and i was thinking.hey! im gonna write on the blog wat happen today...so i drove with an empty mind.Jo told me...every time there will be people coming and go as it suppose to be.so yea.it was an emotional scene.end up hugging her in tears before i left.then she came sown again earlier today to say goodbye.for god sake, i tried my best not to cry.but yea.end up eating my emotional inside.

so i tried to face my day today..i went lunch with uncle...but then...sigh..i still miss Jo...i know she wont be at MMW anymore sitting there doing her work...she will be somewhere..as she left the office,,,she gave me that smile..saying not to cry anymore...and now...im crying...i didnt know her long but then...when she say people come and go..she is one of the people i wish can just stay with me..teach me to grow myself...

she left me with the song.....'jar of heart'..

lately...i just smile with ache inside...i walked with friends..but then i miss my old friends.....wondering what they are doing..how they are...its pretty sad coz we have to move to our own path of what we choose..

yesterday, i was just a thing where people threw their anger at...macam....shit la you..wat the fuck!blame me?for things i didnt do?for things thats not my problem to care?why?realy wanan see me get angry?gila baie banar...i was angry sudah yesterday but then again..i thought its useless jua fighting with a crazy grumpy old bini2 with no idea of how to control anger..so what if you think you hold the important part..i dont care really...sometimes im fed up when she said 'you easy la paperwork sja but me..all codings...'my goodness..i know la all codings but most of it are just copy paste from internet....DUH!! sometimes malas jua kan melayan...like i said...i miss u guys CST29!...so much...im just hoping for the best for a while....have to hold on...

now im hungry but what to eat?mmm.....

its been a while.......while my dad drives me to work..suddenly flashed back to my first semester at college....asrianie's laugh...deera's burp....the cs freaks.....miez's the lecturers..i let out a heavy sigh and thinkin its been a while....few years back i was just nobody..after all those years with all of them,,,i know im somebody now to them...everyone went to their own directions but the memories...can sometime made me shed into tears..missing the surroundings...the people...the noise...the stress air during exams with them..
honestly i do miss them...see them every morning...lunch with them....pick up fights...got bullied and having fun...sit together with them during classes...gossiping in the library...goin crazy when we saw someone we like at the canteen....those kind of memories.are just so priceless..nothing and i mean nothing can buy those memories coz that was what i went through for the past few years...now for me is working time....im making some more new memories...and that is because of the memories i had with cst29..that makes me realise in my life,im looking for memories for me to remember as long as i can remember and for me to face my days....


to be continued.....

sorry for not updating this blog. seriously has been a while ain't it?so.where to start?what's going on in life?of course the ups and downs in life.we both suffered at the same time.have the same result for our diploma.have the same taste for some food.

on the 18th, she just turned 23.and on the 23rd, i just turned 21.so we attended our graduation dinner and i got a lucky ticket or something.so yea actually we both did.and when i went to the front to get my gift,of course my uncle led the crowds on singing my birthday song and i was so i don't know how to describe it.i just smiled.i gave a thank you bow to them all and just went straight to the table.gosh!

these were out gift. jur also had won the ticket thing. told ya. i got one.she got one. we are always like that. for both of us, it shows that we both cannot be never be apart from each other. we need each other.

ow she slept at my place.and guess what.it was my birthday on the day she came to my house. we spend the days talking and all.we listen to ilah on air.and she played me a birthday song. while jur was fixing my eyebrows. ilah is a Dj for Brunei Chat FM.

i listen to it at times.now since the broadband is at home, so i listen to her almost everyday. only if she's on air.hahaha! don't blame me. she plays great songs.other than her, most of them plays jiwang song which i seldom like.if its english,fine by me. malay? gosh a big NO!

what else?oh yea!d guy that i have a crush with is now in singapore. oh well. its just a year, i was so down when he told me that, took me a while to accept it but i did. i just can pray for him very night for his safety and all.

next. uuu now im downloading series.bones and csi miami.love the show.soon im gona download series 'lie to me' since ilah said its about a crime or something.

guess that's it for now.

happy 23rd birthday to her. and happy 21st birthday to me.

define me the word stalker...cali eh...msa last friday..lps2 dri kdai.my bro came to my room...and he was like...wanna have this serious talk about something...so i ask la apa mau nya...den he said...'ka...dunia ne andang tebalik udh ka?'..i ask la blik knpa he ask that...mula2 cm apa ya ah...ketawa ya...i was like...what the heck is wrong with you now -.-' den bru ya smbung ceta..he said.drg kpntai..something hppen...ea ne kn simpan laptop dlm keta.skali ea buka bunet keta.ada diz wh0le bunch of gula2 n letters.dlm letters atu said that dat girl did the whole gula2 staple wit the s0ry w0rd on all the 239 biji gula2 ment0s.n ada jua c0klet.haha.tkut my bro trus.ada stalker.tau2 sapa nah.andng ku xpect dat bini2 yg ku nda ska ah.seems lyk drg n0w c0uple.talo bnr.hahaha.ow did i menti0n kta dat bini2 ac0rding to wat she wr0te rh letternya,ea bwt d wh0le ting,3days 3nyts...mbual th jua bnr.haha..sandi eh.d ment0s ea bwt dlm kutak square bsr.den ada lgi dlm butul ment0s atu 239 sh0rt w0rds,jiwang n disgusting n gushy2...sri0usly..hu wud du dat??pdhl she live lyk 3bl0ck frm my h0uz..geez..y ku mental?lemme tell u..i hate her..and her m0m...and her dad...and her br0...n her sis...yg pnting the wh0le fmily la i hate..my bro used to hate dem..nth apa ka anginny tkr jd ca2 tu..its funny msa liat mua my br0 tkut ada stalker.mun aku wa,haha i wud go wit wat wafi said,bwa surat yg dlm butul ment0s tu kskulh,suh kwn2 bca.biar ya malu.wafi ne th jua ngajar.haha..did i menti0n.wafi was there jua?haha.ampit xa ea mkn c0klet..haha...funny and kinda gr0ss.dont u think so?haha...